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leading worship
a grueling chiseling of oneself.
Lord, instill a fear in me when i approach to worship, for where i trod will be a Holy place, and what i seek is a Holy face.
may my music come second and my words an attempt to describe, for the praise is found deeply where reverence resides.
Protected: Your Date w/ Rogie
First and Last Date
a date with a man in uniform::
damage: expensive date
so okeys, not the conventional date. shame on those who were thinking dinner and movie. actually, it was more like waiting and a sentence. [cueing the crickets:: ki ki ki ki]
wha??
yup, the officer sir was implacable when i cut him off 3 months ago. it was nite time, i was picking up lil sis and friend from B&N. i was on the right lane and wanted to go to the left cuz i wasn’t making a right…so blinker on, accelerated sufficiently and fit snuggly between john doe and officer ego. it was night! who knew?? first ticket.
today was my court date. what did i wear? ya, that was hard, but in honor of my new xanga skin, i wore jeans with a dark grey shirt and a sort of ashes of roses pink sweater over it. what was my date wearing? a very unfashionable black robe…[did nothing for his eyes]. but rogie, the good and faithful hot friend that he is, accompanied me as he promised months ago.
this was my first time folks and well, the story is a lot funnier if i added a bit of information which i need to retain or else i’ll never hear the last of it from certain namecallers…haha…actually, court wasn’t too bad…just had to wait long. i was literally the last person there…so rogie and i filled our time laffing…at me, at the weekend, at stuff…we got a couple of looks from the judge. finally, i was called up and the whole thing went faster than jake’s wind…seriously, i didn’t even know what he said to me…i was like, “okey”…(voice in my head with wild crickets madly chirping away: what in the world?!)
conclusion: i ended up paying for the whole date. jerk.
question: if you could be a wo/man of the law and had the right to issue ANY type of ticket you want, who would you fine and why??
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Rogie’s response:
I,as being a witness in the court, this is some of the highlights:
judge: marchesa fabila vs deptford township,case 109278 . how do u plea?
criminal(chessa):ki ki ki ki ki ahhh ki ki ki ki wut?
judge:I SAID HOW DO YOU PLEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
chessa:ki ki ki ohh, uhhmm, guilty? oh! i mean not guilty! oh wait! ki ki ki ki ki….. wut was the question again your honor?
judge:are you guilty or not quilty?
chessa:can i use one of my life line your honor? id like to talk to my lawyer(rogie).and i want to play my guitar and sing u a song.
judge:NOOOOO! i want your final answer noW!
chessa:ewa!jerk!
judge:wut did you say?
chessa:nothing your heiny.
judge:GUILTY OR NOT GUILTY?
chessa:GUILTY with insanity your honor
Protected: Playing Your Song in Kamayan
Note Fr. Lei
my friend lheila made me smile today.
i opened my ebox and this is what she
sweetly sent me…it was simple, but the
thot was nice, esp. since i didn’t even
get to talk with her last night. 
thanx lhei. the picture bout sums it up. hahahah.
yesterday. i told myself to ease up on reading
books for now. to listen to more pop music, dare
i say it- britney spears (but no n’sync. please).
and to dance more…to watch movies that just
want to please the heart and not so much mind
the mind.
God bless everyone, esp. my family who is traveling.
Planters
the leaves are falling…
i decided to walk a little around campus before and after class, and took the long way to the car. there were hardly any people walking around the buildings where i had just finished my class so i decided to walk really slowly while admiring the trees…something i admire, cuz they seem to each have their own silent story and aesthetic personality…as strange as it may seem to personify bark and leaves, i was just curious to whether the planter realized the end product while he was designing where each specified tree should be positioned. i figured it really would have been boring of him/her to plant the same type of tree, altho i guess it would have its own placable uniformity. but for this specific day, when i decided to admire God’s creation, i felt thankful and loved that the one who planted on that field was a little more ambitious and creative to have allowed various shapes, colors, stories, and personalities. the trees were seriously refreshingly beautiful. A friend told me about stars once and i may have interpreted too personally, but i took what he said as this, “can you believe that a star is burning and positioned at a specific spot, at the time that i am looking at it.” [wow. i gave no justice to what he really said and to what i'm trying to convey...hahah]
i guess what i’m really trying to say is that we’ve been given certain beauties in nature…seemingly small treasures that woo our eyes and heart, hopefully concluding in a big stirring of our minds to look upon God and be humbly grateful, as if we have been given at that moment, just us alone, a gift from God…all we have to do is take time to realize it. that moment of beauty was meant for us to win our thoughts and affection; in all honesty it’s humbling. i realize that the trees were always there, the planter may have been random, but i have grown to believe that God romances His beloved…sometimes you find Him in the storm, sometimes in the beauty of people, at times you look for God in the circumstances, then sometimes you just need to look around and look for Him in the trees. you just have to believe that wow, that was meant for you.
Missing RU
i think i just miss RU. i miss the laughter.
i miss when everyone was together.
i miss praying with friends.
ugh. i miss my apartment. i miss not needing a car.
i miss late night serious talks with friends.
i miss reading at the cafes.
i know i really should be thankful for where God placed me right now. i am. really. i am. but you have those nostalgic moments, i guess. what am i really here for? to help the church with music? we have musicians who just need to step up. for the youth? i don’t make the plans.
keep driving and i keep thinking about something that’s just been really coming up in my thots- what i blogged this summer. “is God just as concerned for my happiness as He is for His glory?” i question myself and demand of myself a conclusive answer, for i’ve been given a good amount of time to experience an answer. empirically, it must be yes. i’ve been listening to one song over and over again and i have yet to believe it 100%. and i struggle to believe it…yes, i know it…i know it’s empirically true, but i need to applicably believe it. “You are good, and Your love endures forever.” His love i realize continues to encompass His glory, for what He does in our lives is for His glory, and i was just reminded recently of what John Piper said. “We are most satisfied when God is most glorified.” Therefore, the amount of glory given unto Him equates the amount of happiness in us. His glory IS our happiness. It’s when we disrupt our giving Him full glory when we also reduce our happiness. Furthermore, when we add manipulated self gratifying motives and disguise it in our offerings, we also hold back on our happiness and that’s why we complain in ministries, or service…like me. it’s so easy to falsify intent, and so hard to delve into the necessary places where you just really need to search and scorch the things that hinder our true worship, and just joyfully bring a sacrifice of praise.
***”Lord, help me to overcome my unbelief…” -somewhere in n.testament. Father, scream it at me. Teach me to concentrate on Your glory alone first Lord. “You will always have my heart.” “You are the only One.” everything Lord will crumble. everything and everyone is so uncertain. it all goes away. May your glory be my happiness.
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