“it’s been a long time since i blogged …” <– this line is starting to become cliche for me. to be honest, i have no idea why. i can remember over two years ago when i started, i can always see things and then i write about it. sometimes i come off with something smart, silly, even to the point of being profound.

lately i’ve been having a difficulty writing, i can’t seem to express myself anymore. there are even times when i can’t even find the words to say. more often than not, i would be in the middle of a meeting and i just can’t seem to find the exact words that i wanted to say in order to express what i feel about a certain idea or a specific issue at hand. there are even times when i easily forget what somebody told me a minute ago. it’s as if i neverheard anything.

is it stress? i don’t really know. i’m tired all the time, which basically amplifies whatever emotions (mostly negative) i have. the most i’ve slept is 5 hours, not counting the times when i just wake up in the middle of the night for no reason at all.

a particular verse stuck to my mind … psalms 127:2, it says “In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat for he grants sleep to those he loves.”, then I ask the question in my most paranoic cerebral voice … if God grants sleep to those he loves … why am i not sleeping?

silly me, Psalms 100:5 also says that He is good and that his love endures forever. I don’t really need to quote from the bible because i have known that for a fact. the mere idea of me being here typing this stuff is a living testimony that His love indeed endures forever.

it might be a long time until my next … there it goes again, i just forgot what i was about to type … yes, journal entry … but until then