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praise You Lord.

perze called me early this afternoon bringing great great great news. they extended his visa until January of 2005.

this is such a miracle because his working visa is really only active until this may 2004. there was no way of extending it because it had already reached it maximum time. for many many months now, we’d get somewhat despondent because of our situation, knowing how hard it is going to be if he leaves, just because of the visa situation, wondering if he’d be allowed to come back to the US, which is our expected date to marry.

a year ago, we had decided to pray for three specific things.
1. for me to get into a school
a. God exceeded this request by allowing my acceptance into a university, plus giving me maximum credit transfers…90 cr. which only needed 36 more credits to graduate.

2. for my parents, in marriage
a. God answered this next. Feb. 14, perze proposed to me and i had accepted. God went beyond our expectation when Perze confronted my parents with such honesty that he loved me and wanted to marry me. They were a little bit emotional about the realization of me getting married, but they were very accepting to the proposal, which is very very surprising because my parents had the reputation of being very strict about dating. But I feel that God really covered perze. i know this to be true because they have high standards in people, and they have admitted countless times that they approve of him. Plus, perze was able to also talk with his parents, and they gave him their blessings and their trust, even though they have not yet met me.

3. we were praying for perze’s visa
a. God answered this prayer last. This was the ultimate test because we had really almost lost hope for the possibility that he would be extended. God not only answered this prayer, but he also included a client for perze. after having to let perze go of his prior position in Aetna, people within the company recommended him for a new project because they were familiar of his effective efficiency and spirit. This year, they rehired him from Pinkerton to work on a new project.

wow. i am amazed that our prayers have really been answered, despite our times of doubt and worry, and depression, and hopelessness, God was weaving His glorious plans. We know that this is not the end of His miracles, but just the start of a bigger plan unfolding. But at this stage in our lives, we continue our relationship just as it had started, with our common strife to praise God together.

i praise God for the step by step, slow revelation of His faithfulness. we are in awe of all these miracles, and we can really testify of how He does answer prayers and how He loves us so. we know and acknowledge that all these things are only possible because of Him, because it is in His will, and He says that it is so.

i am most amazed with my God. i love You Lord. thank You.

I had a brush with Jealousy today. She probably noticed that I was a bit dazed with what is going on in my life recently. So she stayed a while and decided to have a chat. We talked about “things”. As the conversation progressed, she tried to convince me of not waiting for things to just pan out the way God wanted them to be. She showed me the glitter of what I’d have once I succumb to her wiles. For a bit there, I must admit that I paused and thought about the short term external effects if I indeed go with her. In the middle of all that pausing and thinking, Contentment dropped by to check up on me.

I tell you Contentment has been my on and off friend. In as much I would have wanted to remain and even promised to always keep in touch, Jealousy has been the huge distracting factor. What can I say, Jealousy for some reason is more appealing when compared to Contentment. She always has more things to show than what Contentment has to offer.

The three of us had a fairly interesting conversation. Listening to the both of them ague with points and counterpoints made me see things clearly. I must admit that there was one point in our conversation that made me more confused than ever. Of course all of this is happening in my mind as I was at work, so you can just imagine how distracted I was.

Aside fromt he regular topic of PDA’s, Cars, Houses and all that sort, Jealousy brought up one particular topic that really cought my attention. I was amazed because of the fact that that topic wasn’t even remotely near my radar of consciousness. It was about Digital Audio Encoders/Mixers/Recorders. I do have my own, a Tascam Pocket Studio 5, which I hastily bought 18 months ago and haven’t really been using it that much over that period of time.

Once that topic kicked into gear, my mind just raced to look at what’s out there. I found this nifty USB Recorder, The Tascam US-122 device, which I thought was perfect. I called the dealer and asked if they have it available and discussed with him the possibility of trading in my old gear. My mind was set in getting the device before 9pm tonight.

Shortly after that decision, I got a call from my good old friend, Conscience. The wierd thing was that we had a three way conversation with Contentment. It was a heated discussion, of course I already made up my mind. I was the US-122 Digital Recorder. After we got off the phone, Contentment pulled me aside and started asking me a barrage of questions … why this, why that, remember his, remember that. I put up a good fight I tell you, but contentment for some reason got into me. she made me realize that eventhough jealousy has all these things to offer I forgot that one thing that contentment can give me.

Peace of mind.

So, there you go. I’m sticking with what I have.

Being contented means being able to exercise patience. Being patient means being able to trust that God has a better plan. So I will be contented with what I have. As what God promised to the prophet Habakkuk, “Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vine; even though the olive crop fails, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet i will rejoice in the Lord! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation. The Sovereign Lord is my strength! He will make me as surefooted as a deer and bring me safely over the mountains.” (Hab. 3:16-19)

Jealousy just stormed out of the room. But I have a feeling she will be back.

I bought new shoes today. A pair of Giorgio Brutini’s. It’s been quite a while since I bought my last pair of black “work” shoes. As a matter of fact, I still remember that particular day, and every little detail that happened on that day. If my old pair could talk, it would have told me how, in the span of 486 days, my whole life turned around.

It would have remembered that on day 24, both our worlds stood still. At least mine did. That was the day when she told me that she loved me. The shoes probably didn’t feel needed at that point because the shoes knew that I was floating. Yes, he would have remembered that day.

He would have laughed at my antics on days 55, 86 and 114. Trying so hard to be romantic and at the same time trying so hard not to be noticed that I was trying to be romantic.

Today is the 486th day and my old pair has to retire. He served me well. A new season is about to begin. Today is coincidentally the 17th chicken day. This day also celebrates the 1096th day of which I have been a Xangan.

This day may not live in infamy, but I will remember this day.

[ on love ]

“Gravitation can not be held responsible for people falling in love.”
- Albert Einstien

“The secret of love is seeking variety in your life together, and never letting routine chords dull the melody of your romance.”
- Unknown

“To be loved, be lovable.”
- Unknown

“If you press me to say why I loved him, I can say no more than it was because he was he and I was I.”
- Unknown

!!! happy chicken day mahal !!!