still makes me laff thinking about all the uncertainties.
And yes, i did eat chicken today!
happy chicken day pitz

Perze’s Birthday Weekend

so perze LOVED his present.  the reason why is mainly because God had really personalized it.  we were both so blessed, and changed.

we got to the workshop thinking that there was going to be sooooooo many white older people, but it turned out COMPLETELY opposite.  the conference was held in a korean church, headed by a white pastor and his wife.  also, they were our age, plus, there was only a handful present for the 2 day conference, so we were able to get to talk with their faculty, make some friends with their leaders, and get this- get to talk one on one with steve fee!

STEVE FEE

he wrote songs like:
madly
we are hungry
altar

he led praise and worship during the Worship Together Passion tours under the leadership of Louie Giglio, touring all over the US colleges and universities.

he recorded his new album “Sacred Space“.

to top it all off, he is such an effective and passionate, extreme praise leader, friendly in company, and just a huge blessing to perze and i.  while we were there for his testimony, it was so awesome cuz we were like right in front of him.  it was as if he was really talking to us, it was so informal, it was great.  he is a really blessed instrument, full of practical wisdom, and humility.  during the break, i went to the bathroom, and came back to be surprised to see perze sitting down one on one with steve fee.

apparantly, while i was away, God had imparted to steve the need to approach perze alone, and i was soooooo humbled. imagine, he has been the praise leader that i had admired a long time ago, only to see him encouraging my fiance.  i walked towards them, sat down and entered the conversation.  we were so humbled, and i really praise God for moving Steve’s heart to approach perze.  he really needed that encouragement, and i was joking to steve that it was perze’s birthday, and he badly needed encouragement in his ministries.

God was just so present this weekend. and we were open to listen. it renewed our love for ministry, for music, and for our relationship with God, and renew the meaning of the cross in our lives.  it really gave us strength to be with those believers, so comforting, accomodating, and welcoming…they gave us their numbers, cards, emails…and steve even told perze to email him if he had any questions. it was … wow… awesome.

praise You Lord for just renewing Perze’s spirit.  the conference, the people, the drive, and steve really was there at the most opportune time.  i always thought that it could have been a dream, only because it was soooooo personalized, even the attention given to us.  i love you Lord.

we requested live footage from the conference, so we’re just waiting for the guys from Ichthus to mail it to us.  also, i was able to catch live video of his some of his songs as well, and perze was able to get an audio recording of his testimony.

so anyone interested in any of these, feel free to contact me.

happy birthday mahal.  God is really good huh?  no matter what, remember this weekend, knowing amidst all things, God is bigger than anything!  He has so much in store for you, and so much to show you.  You are a blessing to your family, your friends, your church, and most of all, to me. I am a fan of who you are. i love you.

please   greet   him.

there are times when i just want to sit down and stare at blank space. because there are just times when none of my immediate concerns can be addressed. most of the time i end up thinking that maybe it doesn’t need to be addressed. you know, the “cross the brige when you get there” mentality.

in the past few years, for some reason, i’ve never worried about these things … or should i say, there wasn’t even one bridge in the horizon. everything seems just to happen in its own accord. well, they’re here and i just don’t know what will happen.

faith is funny. it plays with your mind, or could it be that i’m the one playing with my mind.

when you are being behest with a myriad of uncertainties and you don’t know where to turn to. when the best advice people can give you is to “believe that everything will be alright” and the only help that you get is somebody’s prayers, what do you do?

what if this happens for a period of time? this is the stuff that makes people go whacko.

at the end of it all … it makes me realize my place in this world … i am but a pilgrim and i only have one thing … just one thing and that one thing was best written by a certain Fanny J. Crosby in 1873.

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Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
O what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
born of his Spirit, washed in his blood.

This is my story, this is my song,
praising my Savior all the day long;
this is my story, this is my song,
praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, perfect delight,
visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
angels descending bring from above
echoes of mercy, whispers of love.

Perfect submission, all is at rest;
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
watching and waiting, looking above,
filled with his goodness, lost in his love.

(more…)

i’ve experienced something recently that wasn’t very encouraging with all the things i am going through and the things perze is facing. we feel very hurt from it all, esp. me, because i’ve always tried to be a good friend. i don’t think people even want to realize how they’ve set up the drama, and through it all, i just feel like what i’ve entrusted to people, people have created their own drama with me, at a time when it is most not needed.

but out of the blue, unexpectedly, jaspher left me a comment that really encouraged me, balanced the accusations, and gave me joy and justification that i’m doing what i can. so hats off to you jaspher. i really needed that.

it’s hard to plan a date for the wedding.

i’m getting advising this week for my graduation date and requirements so that i can be a step surer of where i will be scholastically on december. i’m praying that this time will fall into place as everything has been so far.

perze got his extension from pinkerton, but he feels as if aetna won’t keep him. that means that he’s gonna have to find another client quickly so that his position in pinkerton isn’t unstable.

tita zenny and tito perlen are best available next year when their school isn’t in session so they’d prefer the date to be then. which is most advantageous for us since there’s 3 months in the engagement visa, if we choose to apply.

i can’t make any finalizations in the date right now because so far, we’re running on faith again. i don’t want to rush the decision (altho, it needs to be made soon) just because i want to know where i will be scholastically so it won’t burden or worry my parents, supposing i don’t graduate. so, that’s why i’m gonna have to take summer school. things will have to be sacrificed this summer- ie. dvbs and great invovlement in basiC, job, and ministries…

i’ve been diligently going to all my classes and so far my grades stand currently in the 3.5 average. i have 2 A’s and 3 B’s…no dropped. i may have to take 3-4 summer classes and then have a full schedule in the fall.

perze and i are also worried about money for the wedding. but i’m starting to accept whatever type of wedding it will be. i know i’m not gonna have a fancy reception but i know what matters most to me. i get to be the wife of the person God fashioned for me. who really needs the pink ribbons? or fancy invitations in script font? what dress do i really need to be known as his bride? what food will make everyone even happier to know and feel our happiness? even if everyone may not be on cloud 9 that evening, at least i know that that evening, the heavens will know that i am his wife.

so it’s ok without the money. i’m truly contented.
thank you Lord.